I’m used to running a mile a minute. Hell, I’ve been known to pride myself on going farther, pushing harder, blazing my own trail just to prove that I can. I didn’t want to be known as one of many, I want to be known as me.
Only, Life isn’t meant to be pushed forward at Mach speed. Just because I accomplish one big goal doesn’t give me the right to barrel through to the next without celebrating the small successes along the way.
Life is meant to be lived deeply.
When running hard and fast, you miss the blessings along the way.
Life has tried to show me this all along the way. To slow down and embrace what is in front of me instead of focusing in on the next big thing…way in the future.
Too many times, Life has brought me to my knees in surrender knowing I can’t do it all, be it all, even when I so desperately wanted or needed to be.
Instead, Life was telling me to slow down, be present, and just BE.
I had missed the signs. I had missed the moments.
In hurrying to finish two degrees, I missed the signs that education wasn’t my in my heart, but in my head. In hurrying to have a family, I missed the beautiful beginning of a partnership of my marriage. In hurrying to make it to bedtime after a long day with three littles, I missed the smiles, laughs, and memories made by being a kid again. In hurrying to create a Life based on what I thought it should look like versus the beautiful present it was, I missed a chance to feel at peace.
So for now, I’m done hurrying; no longer pushing and controlling.
Today and each day after, I am focusing on taking Life one step at a time and watching the beauty unfold.
I trust that I will speed up by slowing down.